1. We admitted we were powerless over food — that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives
For me the first step was easy. All I had to do is look at my past and my present to know that I have no power over food. I have been on diet after diet only to return to habits that I know are harmful to my health and therefore to my life. Doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different outcome is the definition of insanity.
The second step is convoluted for me. I believe that my higher power can truly intervene and restore reason to me but allowing it to happen isn't as easy.
Step three is more difficult. I have made the decision to change my life but as much as I want to put put faith in God it is difficult to hand it all over. I am trying. I am trying to find some inner peace that seems ever out of reach but I am trying.
As I was contemplating this all this morning I looked up the Serenity Prayer. Much to my surprise it doesn't end after that one short paragraph which many of us have memorized. It goes on. So I had to put it with a photo I took just a few days ago.
I am going to try to live my life one day, one moment at a time. I am going to try to put my faith where it belongs. I am going to beat my addiction to food and on the road to recovery I hope I made many promising discoveries about myself.