I am truly a mom over the top! I have been a compulsive overeater for most of my life. The first time I remember specific over the top eating behaviors was when I was 13 years old. That was 24 years ago. I started on this journey to health, to abstinence, to sanity in May, 2010. I hope that by blogging I can help, not only myself, but help others to know that they aren't alone. My tools on this journey are Overeaters Anonymous and SparkPeople.

What a day!

I went to a meeting I don't normally attend.   It was pretty amazing.  A woman was celebrating 29 years of abstinence.  Her story was so much more extreme then mine.  After hearing her speak I thought about how many excuses I have made for myself.  I am the only one who can control my food.  I am the only one who can turn my flaws over to God and ask for the will to do it.

Things are starting to give

It seems like I am getting back into gear.  I am on the road of less than perfect abstinence but at least I am on the right road instead of trying to take a freaking shortcut.   I am down 2.5 pounds from last week.  I still can't believe I had allowed myself to gain 13 pounds during my recovery.  Winter was rough and it seems like spring is refusing to begin.  I am looking out the window at this moment watching snowflakes fall.  Wanting to yell MOTHER NATURE IT'S SPRING and knowing it won't make a difference.   I went out to check the mail a little while ago after remembering that we never did yesterday.   As I walked out the door it was just beginning to spit snow.   I actually said loudly "stupid snow" and the builder working on the house next door cracked up.  Next time I must remember to check for an audience before muttering in frustration.

So my mom read an article this week about grapefruit reducing blood sugar when eaten with or just before a meal.  She bought me 12 grapefruit and a half gallon of juice.  I HATE grapefruit, unless of course it is covered in sugar which completely defeats the point.  So twice a day I have been choking down bitter fruit to appease my mom.  It might have helped my weight loss, it might not have but I am not enjoying it and am having acid reflux which doesn't usually bother me.  I guess it is time to tell my mom I don't want to bother.  EEK!  I hate those conversations.

I have an appointment with the allergist on Saturday and have to be without long acting antihistamines (like loratadine or cetrizine) for 7 days ahead of time and can't take diphenhydramine for 4 days ahead of time.  I am less than two days off of Zyrtec© and am a complete and total mess.   I am sneezing, coughing and choking on drainage.  I tried taking Benadryl© with no ease of symptoms.  This is going to be a long week.  I am hoping this is simply a cold that will be gone in a couple of days and isn't just the beginning of a week of misery.  Either way I am just anxious to get answers.   I am so incredibly tired of being sick.

I have been keeping busy with my crochet business.  It is starting to pick up.  Now I need to get some sunhats made up so I can get summer business as well.  There is seriously nothing cuter that a baby, toddler or child in a handmade hat.  No matter what time of year.   I know summer is a big season for baby gifts as well so I am hoping to continue being able to contribute financially as I have been the past few weeks.

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