A New Year and a New Day

I didn't stay up to ring in the New Year last night.  I have three young children and just don't have that much energy.  I did get up early to go to my OA meeting.  There couldn't be a better way to kick this year off than to remember my addiction and to look forward to the rest of my journey to recovery.

Happy New Year

As I sit here listening to my nearly six year old twins whine to stay up until midnight my headache multiplies exponentially.  Still, I can't help to be grateful for what this year has brought me.  I wish that I could say that I have been abstinent for my nearly 7 months in OA but I can't.  I can say that I have spent more than half of that time abstinent and that the times I have failed to keep my abstinence I mostly haven't been as far out of control as I was a year ago.   For each time that I have been able to walk away from a trigger food, for each time that I have stopped before I went into a full fledged binge, for each time I have sat and crocheted,  or written a letter, or made a phone call I am grateful.  I am ever grateful for the courage I found to walk into that first OA meeting.


I couldn't be more grateful for my friends and family this year.   During my journey to health, my journey to recovery, they have been unfailingly supportive of me.  Some have brought meals to help out post-surgery, some have helped with the kids, all have helped by listening.

Right now I am realizing that I have been neglectful in thanking God enough for His help in this journey.  As I sit here typing I am lifting my voice to praise Him in one of the best ways I know how.


There are so many things this year that were incredibly difficult but so many more good things have happened and I don't want to forget it.

Happy New Year!

A couple of tips

Although I wouldn't recommend having surgery to anyone trying to live a healthier lifestyle sometimes it can't be avoided. 

I am 12 days into my recovery from ankle ligament repair.  I have been completely non-weight bearing for those days, either in a wheel chair or on crutches the entire time.  It has been entirely frustrating.  That this whole thing coincided with the holidays hasn't made it any easier.   Friends have been super helpful by bringing meals and holiday treats. 

Apparently I am still struggling with handing my will over to my higher power because I have not resisted one single sugary temptation.   I am trying hard to get back on my plan now by tracking all of my food.