I am truly a mom over the top! I have been a compulsive overeater for most of my life. The first time I remember specific over the top eating behaviors was when I was 13 years old. That was 24 years ago. I started on this journey to health, to abstinence, to sanity in May, 2010. I hope that by blogging I can help, not only myself, but help others to know that they aren't alone. My tools on this journey are Overeaters Anonymous and SparkPeople.
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The past month has been crazy

Early in July I asked someone from my Face to Face OA meetings to sponsor me.  She accepted.  We just started working together so I still have a long way to go but I have a tour guide for the rest of the journey.


I hit a 10% weight loss which was 28 pounds gone. I went from having triple digits of weight to lose to "only" having double digits. Amazing really.  


I sliced my hand open on a plastic strawberry container, it was pretty deep and located on my palm from my thumb to the valley between my index and middle fingers.  Surprisingly painful and difficult to heal.  I ended up using sterile surgical strips to keep it closed so it wouldn't reopen each time I moved it.  I ended up losing a couple of weeks of crocheting time because of it but oh well.


I became lackadaisical, completely unmotivated about my journey to recovery.  The first symptom of this was my lack of passion to blog.   It didn't really hit me that I was losing my way until I ate a trigger food (chocolate chip cookies) and luckily my family was eating too or I would have finished two dozen on my own.  As it was I ate three servings.  


My husband was on vacation for 9 days.  We enjoyed our time together.  We spent time sight seeing around Kansas City, doing things we don't normally take the time to do.  We also spent two days in Omaha going to the Strategic Air Command Museum and the Henry Doorly Zoo.  Both were amazing.  Even though I planned and packed snacks ahead of time I veered way off of my plan while we were gone and neglected to use SparkPeople to track the food I did eat, even though I had internet access several times during the short trip.


Last Friday night I had my first full fledged binge in months.   I was terribly sad afterward.  I ate until I was way past full.  I ate while I was alone.   I ate food that wasn't good for me.   It was difficult to sleep that night and my OA meeting was Saturday morning.  I admitted what had happened at the meeting and was met with acceptance and love.   The binge was a wake-up call.  It let me know how far I was slipping.  It reminded me that I still have lots of work ahead of me and it has made me realize how precious each binge free day so far has been.   I am looking forward to lots more.   I have to head out now.  I am calling my sponsor in a bit.   We get to talk about life and food and OA.




Oh, I almost forgot one of the best parts.  I have lost 35.5 pounds.   I am now just under 250 pounds.  It is pretty amazing to no longer be able to say "I am almost 300 pounds".

 
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