It is 11:05 p.m. so I should be sleeping but instead I want food. Why do I want food? Because I am stressed, I am seriously terrified that we won't make the rent this week, that our water will be shut off because we can't get it paid on time. It is like every time we start to see the light at the end of the tunnel something more hits us financially, one of the cars goes down, the basement floods, a child gets sick and needs medicine and a doctor's visit, the list goes on and on. Eventually it snow balls until we don't know which end is up and how the hell we are going to get rent to the landlord in time.
We have pretty spectacular landlords who take care of problems as quickly as they can. They are nice people and we share mutual friends. I don't want to rock the boat, I don't want to risk angering them. I just want to be able to pay the rent and still be able to feed my kids.
I am hoping that one of us can find an evening job for a while to help get us out from under the mire. So far I have resisted raiding the 'fridge but I wish the stress would just magically go away so I don't have to keep fighting through this place.
I am truly a mom over the top! I have been a compulsive overeater for most of my life. The first time I remember specific over the top eating behaviors was when I was 13 years old. That was 24 years ago. I started on this journey to health, to abstinence, to sanity in May, 2010. I hope that by blogging I can help, not only myself, but help others to know that they aren't alone. My tools on this journey are Overeaters Anonymous and SparkPeople.