One of my dear friends is the mother of a gender non-traditional child. Today she posted a link to this song and the lyrics to it. This song has to mean different things to different people. For me, it simply reminds me that God doesn't make mistakes.
I have really been struggling these past few months. Struggling with letting God take the reigns of my control. I often feel like a failure like something was messed up with me from the get go. I love the message of this song. I am not a mistake, I am just human.
I began to once again wonder if I have some seasonal depression issues. If maybe I need a tweak in my medication during the winter months. Both times in my life that I have been on the road to health the journey has come to a screeching halt when the gray gloomy skies of fall have set in.
I am tired and ready for the sun. It has been over 50 degrees for the past 3 days and we still have snow on the ground...that gives you an idea of how much snow we had. I need to be up and moving. I need to be using my brain. I have an interview this morning. It is a job at the school my big kids go to. It is an after school position as a child care assistant. 9 years ago I was the director of the school age child care program at that school so I am hoping that my experience gets me the job. It would help our finances so much for me to have a regular income. Also, it would get me out of the house and doing something productive every day. The twins would be able to come to the program for free until my husband picks them up around 4:15 each day. This means we only need to have about 90 minutes of care for our youngest each day and we have the worlds' best babystitter who will do that for us affordably. So here's hoping that it all pans out.